31st Jan 3.06am

Dearest Weishan,
It’s been long since I send you an email already bah.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately,
A lot about you and me.
I wasn’t able to sleep well for the past week.

I really thought about it for a long time on whether should I tell you or not.
But from what I feel, I feel that you have all rights to know about it.
It’s not about a relationship between you and me.
It’s not about the one-sided love between you and me
It’s about our friendship.
I don’t know what really made me felt thinking this way,
But I really thought about it a lot of times,
To terminate the friendship that we have.

Sorry to say that I’ve thought about it this way
I asked myself a lot of times before finally making my conclusion
Why am I feeling this way?
What makes me think about it?
How can I get rid of this kind of thinking?

Even though more than a month has passed,
But I’m still not used to not having your presence around me at all.
It seems the same feeling as not been able to feel my heart beat for a few seconds,
Like something crucial is really missing.

I wish to go back to the past,
Where we could sms with each other all day and all night
With me entertaining you, concern about you
And you been entertained by me and my nonsense

I really really miss you a lot.
I wish you could be by my side now
Or just that little presence.
I had enough of those things coming out of my eyes.
It’s too much for me to bear everything.
I can’t take it anymore.
It’s torturing me very badly.

But too bad I don’t intend to let you even see this.
I don’t want you to worry.
I just want you to feel that I’m ok here
And I’m enjoying myself a lot
And studying hard here

One of my wishes,
Is to have you by my side as long as I could
Or even have you by my side now.
Just a second of it and I’ll be satisfied
I love you girl…=(

How about you?
Do you feel the same way too?
I always wanted to know how you really feel
Towards me
If you’ve forgotten about me the past month,
Let me know,
I don’t’ mind
Just put my mind at ease